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hi. im known as angela. sometimes they call me nurse/ missy/ betty, depending on their moods. qop-ian since birth. LOM-er since 12. and as much as i bitch/complain/roll my eyes real hard, i generally love the people/ the friends/ the life i have right now. oh yeah, im only 21 though i was told i looked a tad more mature.


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Sunday, March 14, 2010 @ 10:47 PM
exams stressssssss

why am i blogging suddenly the day before my major health assessment?

stress sends you to wierd places.

last week has been hell week part one. i had exam on thurday and a MAJOR MAJOR research proposal that sapped out all the time i had! monday and tuesday in school till late. fight scream quarrel throw stuff- thank goodness the presentation part is over. now its just the 3000 word proposal left. sigh. and finished another presentation on thurday MORNING BEFORE the exam at 10am.

this week is hell week part two. health assessment tml and 8465 on wednesday, proposal submition on the same day as well. HOW?? its just killing me! night and day, there is no difference. i was so bogged down that when i went for pet's lenten retreat last friday... i went into the room and started crying within five minutes. maybe at that moment i felt so far away from God. maybe i just realise that he has been helping me and yet i didn't appreciate it. it felt like after a very long time, i came home. to HIM.

perhaps i forgot essentially why i did my advanced diploma. i wanted to help with additional knowledge. the best week was the last week of attachment for me. dealing with patients with terminal illness and feeling that connection once again to the reasons as to why i wanted to become a nurse, its a daily struggle when i face books instead of humans.

and with these two weeks fully packed i felt so guilty, especially to faith coz i haven't been spending enough time with her, missing out on a lot. when the Ho's came over to my house last wednesday while i was studying i nearly wanted to cry. sigh. all these work is turning me into an emotional freak.

gotta get back to work now

"it takes two people to make a lie. one to tell it and one who believes it."